Good In Goodbye

Who has heard the Carrie Underwood song "Good In Goodbye" from her Blown Away album? 

If you haven't or if you love it as much as I do...listen to it here:

The first time I heard this song, I got a little teary-eyed. 

I'm pretty sure I was pregnant at the time, so that could have been it, but it was also because the lyrics really meant something to me. 

{sorry about this Jason, but stick with me until the end}

When I was in college I had a serious boyfriend and was madly in love with him. I thought he was absolutely 100% "the one". But, after a year together and another 6 months of a very difficult long distance relationship, we broke up. 

I thought the world was ending. 

I have never felt pain like that before. I wouldn't wish that heartbreak on my worst enemy. Our relationship, however, didn't end after our break up. We still talked. We still saw each other when he was home. And we still very much cared for each other which lead to A LOT of emotions, A LOT of confusion and A LOT more heartbreak. 

After another couple of years of the back and forth, I decided I needed to move on once and for all, which thanks to a really short but really fun summer relationship I was able to do. 

And then, just a few short months later, I was at the 50th birthday party of a very dear family friend. His son was there. His son who I had had a crush on since I was a very little girl.
And that day {November 9, 2007} everything changed. 

It's been 5 1/2 years since that party and I have everything I've ever wanted. 

I married my best friend. 

I have a beautiful baby girl. 

I am truly happy. 

Jason is my soul mate. I CANNOT imagine my life with anyone else.

So when I hear "Good In Goodbye", I think of my ex-boyfriend, I think of that painful heartbreak and I think about how lucky I am that I experienced it all because it made me ready to love Jason with all of my heart. 

"As bad as it was. As bad as it hurt. I thank God I didn't get what I thought I deserved. Sometimes life leads you down a different road. When you're holding on to someone that you've got to let go. Someday you'll see the reason why...there's good in goodbye."

I don't really know what the point of this post was...but the song came on and I love it. But also, it's nice to remind myself sometimes that God has a plan and everything happens for a reason. Whether you're going through a heartbreak, an illness or family drama, no matter what it may be, there is a light at the end of the tunnel and you will come out stronger and happier and realize that the struggle was worth it.

annnnnd, stepping down from my soapbox.